aihhhh*sigh*

it's sunday..should be great right but today for me,it's not!..



i've lost my mood to do anything not even to study. later in the evening, we're leaving to the HGH convention centre-the place we'll have the college dinner which is tonight. having rehearsal 1st there but now im in the can-i-skip-that-thing mood. ayooo~~



just now, i tidy up my desk. so that amy(dearest roommate) won't be stunt seeing her room like dump. haha, i guess you can imagine how's the room looks like. it's a lil' bit tidy now except the 'rak'..with lots of dont-know-what-the-paper-are and the new comics i bought yesterday..aihh~



i bought 4 new comics yesterday, crazy is't but i am crazy over comics..=P.(used to bought 7 comics at 1 time..and spent rm200++ for comics when i was in matric year..lalala~). i just read one and the rest, dont have the mood either.



yesterday also, i'm having this one interview of spkg(sistem penilaian kompetensi generik). not a bad interview and thanks god everything are smooth eventhough i thought i was late at 1st. it should start at 530 pm and i manage to arrive k1 5 minutes after that, but everyone didnt go in because the group before us was still inside..fuhh~



lots of people might think that spending rm200++ for things like comics as useless aka membazir. but for me, as long as im satisfied because im crazy over it and i want to make it as a collection. at home(the last time i count it) i have about 70 comics. im not sure if i can get it into 100 untill this semester end..huhu..maybe it's my favourite to spend the money. and now i realise that i prefer to spend it with stuff. buy comics, hairclip, earring, dress and food of course instead of spending it in such a way like movie or bowling. i use the money for something that i can keep for times, but for things that cant be kept i'm quite slow i guess.

FYI: i'm in dead lazy. and wish me the best for tonight.=\

psst:some1 borrows my comics but didn't give it back

but i dont know who..huhu='(

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::MENYESAL::

i found this song a day ago..it's too pathetic for those who experienced it~


Ressa Herlambang - Menyesal

Semula ku tak yakin
Kau lakukan ini padaku
Meski dihati merasa
Kau berubah saat kau mengenal dia

Reff:*
Bila cinta tak lagi untukku
Bila hati tak lagi padaku
Mengapa harus dia yang merebut dirimu

Bila aku tak baik untukmu
Dan bila dia bahagia dirimu
Aku kan pergi meski hati tak akan rela

Terkadang ku menyesal
Mengapa ku kenalkan dia padamu


crossing my fingers:plz god dont let this happen to me coz im not strong enough to face it..but if this is your plan for me,give me the strong heart to handle it..=_=

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Ugly-Daphne And Celeste

(We Didn't Say That)O.K!

I'm a cheerleader now!

U.G.L.Y

You ain't got no alibi

You ugly

Hey! Hey! You ugly [x4]

I saw you walking down the street just the other day

I didn't see your damage from that far away

I should have got a clue when the kids started screaming

You walked up to me with your buck teeth a-gleaming

You hair was all frizzy and your face was a mess

I thought it was a sack but it's your favourite dress

You hurt the trees feelings and the birds all flew

I don't mean to insult you - Oh yes I do!

Your teeth are yellow they're covered in mould

You're only fourteen you look a hundred years old

When looks were handed out you were last in line

You face looks like where the sun don't shine

Did you fall off a building and land on your head

Or did a truck run over your face instead

There ain't no pill cos you ain't ill

What you really need is to wear a mask

And book that plastic surgeon fast, gir

lYou're scary you're hairy I heard about you

You're the main attraction at the city zoo

You're so ugly with a belly full of flab

When you wear a yellow coat people shout out cab! (So funny)

You got eyes like a pig and your nose is big

And with hari like that you should be wearing a wig

Uncle Fester remember him

I never knew that you had a twin

You can't disguise your googly eyes

In the Miss Ugly pageant you win first prize

Your mama says you ugly, you ugly

Quasimodo,Camelbreath,Squarehead,Ugly~

Chicken legs,Pigface,Chin like bubba

Ugly!

Fish lips,Toad licker,Poindexter

Ugly!

Spaghetti arms,Limp butt,Freakshow

Ugly!

U.G.L.Y

you could make an onion cry

U.G.L.Y

like an alien chased by the F.B.I

cela-boneca

Rabak mata ku

Pena menari

Tinta berdarah

Rabak mata ku

Pena menari-nari

Tinta berdarah

Kata membara-bara*

Masanya ku bernafas

Ini terakhir kali

Puas sudah ku sesak

Dalam dunia sempit

Dulu tersungkur

Kini berdiri

Kau bermain api

Kini ku bakari

Dulu menunduk

Kini ku celik

Kau bermain api

Chorus:

Engkau mahu sempurna

Engkau jadi sempurna

Biar aku bahagia dengan cela ku

Engkau mahu malaikat

Turun dari kayangan

Biar aku bahagia dengan cela ku

Mengapa

Tidak engkau cermin saja

Diri mu yang sempurna, mempesona

Ku bahagia dengan cela

Mengapa

Tidak kau bercinta saja

Dengan diri mu yang sempurna, mempesona

Ku bahagia dengan cela

Siapa yang mampu mencapai mahu mu

Bilamana kau juga seorang manusia?

Siapa yang mampu mencapai mahu mu

Bilamana kau juga seorang manusia?

2 songs that when i listen of, i found one similarity in the songs..they sang about not-beatiful-person.what make it diffrent on the surface is, cela is more to complaining on some1 that they sick of, UGLY is more to kutuk some1 that they dont want to see through their eyes..cela is focus on the singer while ugly is about the third person.and when you compare both songs,cela sounded like pay off what ugly talk of..

~just wanna share something here~

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~terbang sayang~

yuhuu~~

hehe..td,cbok dok usha blog lagu..jmpe lagu baru..sang by cik payung..it's an indie band if im not mistaken, with female vocalist,perhaps you never heard of it..its song are nice, especially the one entitled terbang sayang..

Sekian lama aku mencari,

kini kutemu yang tak pasti ku kecapi

Kadang ku berlari,

tanpa destinasi dirimu,

tetap dihati

Aku adalah aku,

takkan berubah bisakah kamu menerimanya

atau harusku berpijak dibumi,

yang nyata mengikat rasa

Kamu bagai mimpi yang datang dan pergi,

bagai ilusi yang tak mungkin terjadi

tak mungkin ku gapai kerna setinggi awan,

patah luluh sayapku

dan ku tak bisa terbang sayang

Aku adalah aku,

takkan berubah bisakah kamu menerimanya

atau harusku berpijak dibumi,

yang nyata mengikat rasa

Kamu bagai mimpi yang datang dan pergi,

bagai ilusi yang tak mungkin terjadi

tak mungkin ku gapai kerna setinggi awan,

patah luluh sayapku

dan ku tak bisa terbang sayang

this song was 1st promoted by some1 from fs group 89'..and i used to dedicate it to a guy that i admired of..hehe..but now, when i listen to it, it will remind me of him..why??..because he is some1 that i dont think i can be with~bagai mimpi yg datang dan pergi~..=(..*crying silently*..

life is wonderfull when you have some1 in your heart..doesnt matter he or she knows it or not..because that some1 can cherish you without he/she realises it then hurts you without you predict it to happen..

that's the life..being cherish and being hurt..no 1 can get away from it or hide from it,

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class day vs vacation day..

haluu~~

today is a nice day, with the great weather..no raining just a lil' bit hot..global warming is the king to the world now..huhu..

besides this great day, is a bad day to us-the forensic 1st year students..why??..because all our claz are cancel and im sure in your mind-lorr,kn bez claz cancel,yes that's true..when the whole claz on that day are cancel, it seems like yeahh!!cuti~..but for us,it didnt..because we know all of it when we reach bangi..physic chem should start on 9 but the lecturer didnt show up,then genetic conference from kl-we miss it up.the claz should end on 12 but dismiss earlier on 1130..our video conference is successfully connected to kl on 1130-can imagine that??..after that we wait for the next claz-analytical chem on 3..15 minutes before 3,someone 'tampal' somekind this note on the DAM main door..ok fine..the analytical chem claz is cancel..so, this means that our 'penantian' are all useless and wasting our time..and i assume this day as a vacation day which we went for lunch at KUO and roti telur at fst cafe,withthrawn our money at pusanika,bought stuff at unikeb and went to pusat kesihatan for scaling(main purpose:get the free dentistry stuff sempena minggu pergigian..huahua).aihhh~

note:gud luck for medic 2nd year student..lg2 nina n jonat...

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::cant let go::

If there's anything that you want,

If there's anything I can do,

Just call on me and I'll send it along

With love from me to you.

I've got everything that you want,

Like a heart that is oh, so true.

Just call on me and I'll send it along

With love from me to you.

I got arms that long to hold you

And keep you by my side.

I got lips that long to kiss you

And keep you satisfied, oooh.

If there's anything that you want,

If there's anything I can do,

Just call on me and I'll send it along

With love from me to you.

From me, to you.

From me. To You.

Just call on me and I'll send it along

With love from me to you.

I got arms that long to hold you

And keep you by my side.

I got lips that long to kiss you

And keep you satisfied, oooh.

If there's anything that you want,

If there's anything I can do,

Just call on me and I'll send it along

With love from me to you.

To you, to you, to you.

~think of him~

aaargghh tidakk!!!..

i've decided yesterday to forget everything about him..but now??

gosh..

you might think im crazy now..huahua..

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arini is today..

today is march 18..
any idea???..(otak kosong xleh tido..huhu)
yesterday was syahirah's bezday..but dont have the photo yet..cant upload it here..=(

n 2 days ago is a relief day..everything is fine now..im relief, all thing is settled down n hopefully will back to normal..but,i still have this unease feel which i myself dont understand it..feel of guilty perhaps..if you're following my blog for centuries, you might notice something missing in my page here..lets acting nothing happens ok..*wink*

it's 2.40 am..
cant sleep..maybe because i slept too much on the noon..from 1pm untill 6..d'oh..cant help it when you slept like hell..a few minutes later, salma texted me
salma:jum men badminton
me:okie

but,then she said "nk jln2 g tasek la"..so, both of us pn jln2 g tasek and went eat burger..it's been a while i think i didnt eat burger..2 months maybe(busy deyh)..went back to college about 7pm..

tonight, i had borneo dance practise..dance again but this time for the college dinner..maybe this will be my last dance participation in ktsn..next sem,we're moving to bangi..*i dont want to move to bangi..bangi xde die..=(*..oppss,me merepek again..haha

today is quite a happy mode for me..same as yesterday also..i met him-yesterday n today..hehe,and same as before,i couldnt do anything except looking at him..

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Di hadapan orang yang kita cinta, hati kita akan berdegup kencang.
Tapi di depan orang yang kita suka, hati kita akan gembira.
Di depan orang yang kita cinta, musim sentiasa berbunga-bunga.
Di depan orang yang kita suka, musim itu cuma berangin sahaja.
Jikalau kita lihat di dalam mata orang yang kita cinta, kita akan kaku.
Jikalau kita melihat mata orang yang kita suka, kita akan tersenyum.
Di depan orang yang kita cinta, lidah kelu untuk berkata-kata.
Di depan orang yang kita suka, lidah bebas berkata apa sahaja.Di depan orang yang kita cinta, kita menjadi malu.
Di depan orang yang kita suka, kita akan tunjukkan imej yang sebenar.
Kita tidak boleh merenung mata orang yang kita cinta.
Tapi kita selalu merenung mata orang yang kita suka.
Bila orang yang kita cinta menangis, kita akan turut menangis.
Bila orang yang kita suka menangis, kita akan membuat dia gembira.
Perasaan cinta bermula dari kata. Perasaan suka bermula dari telinga.
Jadi, jikalau kita berhenti menyukai seseorang yang kita suka. Umpama kita membuang telinga kita. Tapi jika kita cuba menutup mata. Cinta berbuah menjadi airmata. Setiap orang akan mengalami ini dalam hidup mereka.

stolen from some1 blog..

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hidup skg~

a week had past..mata pon dh saket asik nangis..teringat nangis..bc pon nangis jwk
dari dlok smpe nktk asik jd benda yg sma jak..is this how god want to show me that i dont deserve good friends??..or am i dont have the right to be angry??..rsanya tk la 1st aku manas ngn cdak..n at last cdak rsa aku yg mk ptskn friendship ya..never tot dat gadoh can coz my eyes bengkak mcm pau..

right now im all alone..salma ad p smpai bla..ny dh ad izni n intan,xkn aku mk rampas bestfriend org..dat day g kamal sorg2, sket lg mk kna lantak ngn moto..nsb bait kaki smpat brek,mun x mk msk ospital..blt2 jak dr kamal,bdn sket2..bku berat nk mati..rsa cam mk dmam..blakang pon rsa sket..kn bez mun nktk rah umah..xpelu la mk kuar cne2,ddk jga umah jak..

aritk tek bgn lmbt..jga2 jak nangga jam dh kol 2 lbh..rsa cam jam ya bulak jak..tdo pn cam tdo mati..xsedar matahari dh turun ke ptg..after mandi dpt rsa blkang sket,n rsa cm ad sumthing kt pinggang..aihh,mcm2 jak sket kdk org tua pn ad..then bkak blog..asal bkak blog nangis p mun x bkak blog mk bkak ape gk..grup 89 pn aku dh xlyn,fb plak menkonfiuskn aku ngn homepage br..nsb rumate blt,mun x maloo jak nangis dpn org..huhu..

lately salu terbc page psal agama..psal kristian adlah agama sesat,kristian penyebab murtad etc..sedih bla bc even aku xdala alim ne..sbb mls mk klaie so aku mls mk rep..smpe nktk aku x rep page ya,kcik ati pn ad..1 thing yg aku kagum ngn org sekeliling aku nktk is they still treat me nice, very nice eventho lain agama..xtauk la blakang2,tp mun cdak talk sumthing bad psal kristian pn ya hak cdak..bg aku as long as cdak lyn aku bait,no big deal..

seriously, aku rsa aku dpt trima islam(mun debo bca mst ny ngamok tk..huhu),nktk pn org nk aku ska is a malay boy p bla aku bca dat page yg kata kristian is agama sesat..aku terpk,mun la aku convert one day klak(note:this is only an assumption k..) aku akn jd cam cdak ka..menghina agama lain..n memperlekehkan ajran agama lain..then salahkn agama lain bla sumthing bad happen to their religion such as murtad..org christian pn ad jwk yg msk islam,rsnya byk gk dr yg islam msk christian..im sure bla cdak kuarkn statement cdak x pk pn camne perasaan famly christian ya bla anak cdak msk islam..sumtimes bnda cmtk ssh kta mk avoid..mcm case yg aku bca kt dat page..anak tba2 msk kristian sdgkn idup dibesarkn penuh ngn ajaran agama..same case gak ngn kazen kwn aku..org kuat church, aktif church sejak kcik ag..p bla besa tup2 dgr dh msk islam..so ape slacknya..slh ajaran agama lain ka..(tba2 ngrepak psal agama ctk..)..all this thing makes me wondering,ptt ka aku convert if one day org yg aku rsa my mr right is a muslim??..i used to say to some frens..myb cdak pk aku main2..aku pdh cdak aku akn ikut solat mun (nma dirahsiakn) yg conduct...

n then,bla dtg jak valentine's day..mula la sebarkn risalah cmne hari ya wujud..then suma pn caya la blt2 dgn yakin..dr kcik smpe nktk dh x terkira brapa igek cita dh psal valentine's day tk..n each one is a diff story..mengatakan salah p bnda ya jwk yg disambut n dibuat..in dat same page pn salu ckp psal kapel ya haram..dh tau haram jgn amalkn,mun tau org lain amalkn tego la..p mun org ya xmk dgr,gine gk la..mcm apa yg aku pnah tangga rah tv dlok..mun xpat ditego ngn perlakuan..tego ngn kata2..p mun xpat jwk ditego ngn kata2..tego la dlm ati which mean doakn org ya sedar bnda ny polah ya slh..so mun org ya xmk dgr,still jwk mk kapel..doa la dlm ati anythng yg ptt..(sumtimes aku rsa aku tk cam free thinker jak..bnda yg agama lain amalkn aku ikut mun aku rsa btol..=S)..pa2pun..tlg la jgn kutuk agama lain wpn agama sndiri ya btol..

~at this moment, i can say that ill forever a christian..born as a christian and die as a christian..but the future is something that we hardly predict what will happen..think of it..~

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apa lagi~

kau membuat aku terpinga-terpinga

mengenangkan tentang kita

hari demi hari bersilih ganti

aku disini tetap menanti

apa bisa aku kan terus begini menahan rasa sakit dihati

dah ku cuba melakukan segalanya namun kau masih begitu

sajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

apa lagi yang kau mahu dari ku telah ku berikan segalaaa.......

namun masih ada tak kena ahhahhhhhhh...

apa...

ahhhhhhhhhhahhhhhhhh....

apa...

apa lagi yang harusku buktikan

lelah sudah ku meratapi

hanya untuk menyakinkan mu..

apa...

apa lagi yang perlu ku lakukan

kata kan saja kepada ku

agar dapat aku terus kan hidup ku...,

apa lagiii...apa lagiiii...

this is one of the indie song i always listen to since my 1st semester..promoted by a friend from fs. i like this song, both its music n the singer vocal, sang by boneca entitled apa lagi. now when i listen to this song, i would remember the recent thing that happened. irrated but pathetic at the same time. but life must goes on right. i read her blog which i just knew she had one today. and i think she'll read this post. i did said i hate those ppl, that's bcoz im mad. i dont even remember i said such a thing.

now that i understand why ppl say words that we said when we're in temper are sharp as sword.

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