..If you get there before I do..

If you get there before I do - Collin Raye

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I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923

Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me

He said boy you might not understand

But a long, long time ago

Grandma's daddy didn't like me none

But I love your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together

Get married in the first town we came to and live forever

But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead

I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see

And between now and then until I see you again

I'll be loving you, love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma past away

In the door way of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray

I know I'd never seen him cry in all my 15 years

But as he said these words to her

His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see

And between now and then until I see you again

I'll be loving you, love me

Between now and then until I see you again

I'll be loving you, love me

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♦ nahh..gini dong kalau nak bercinta..mark your words..when you say you wont let him/her down, prove it!..dlm lagu di atas,terbukti la kan sbb dorg dah ada cucu..terus terang la, aku pun pernah sayang orang,  sangat2..once dah sayang, memang sampai mati la sayang, and susah nak letak tepi dah rasa tu..tapi kalau dah once kau lepaskan orang tu,mark your words babe..let him/her go..sayang dia dalam doa kau, jangan seksa diri sendiri..Tuhan pun xsuka ok..*type sambil tembak diri sendiri ngn bazooka..aihh emo sungguh budak nie*

♥ believe it or not, my 1st listening to this song i cried..well, biasa la..sambil dengar sambil baca lirik..then membayangkan diri di situasi granpa tu..it's sooo a true love story kan..ok, ketuk kepala sy sebab mengatakan sedemikian rupa sedangkan i dont believe true love exist..dang!..but i really admire this song..bayangkan..wait2, kita assume la dia kahwin lari tu umur belasan tahun or awal 20 and now he's like 70 something..means dia dah simpan surat tu about, 50years????..im gonna say 'OMG!!'..isnt that sweet, tolong la weis..it's a LOVE LETTER ok!..guys, where will you find a hand-written love letter nowadays???..ok being honest, i still keep my school love letter..derr..anyway,it's a beautiful song, sway n sweet..and im listening to it over and over again..i hope you guys love it same as me..(✿◠‿◠)

*see the red colored 1?..thats my fav part..^_^

 

nota bersepah:

..esok balik..esok balik..esok balik..*sy xnak!!*

..ohhooo..ada dua emosi terlibat dlm entry nie..gugugugu~

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::cuma kenangan jatuh cinta::

even though a 'name' is a 'name'..but still, 'it' can be a big shake to some1's heart..and now,she's gonna take it easy because she adapted to the absent of 'it'..one year and a half..

 suatu petang di tasek titiwangsa

*ok,sedikit jiwang arini..sila muntah [bak kata cik niya]

 nota bersepah

..after a 'name',there it comes another 'name'..n now,im struggling for this 1..mendoakan agar hati tidak terlalu lembut..

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the small thing inside i feel deeply at this moment

cik muda nie memang suka jual muka sndiri,maafkan beliau ye..

nota bersepah:
..jiwa kacau..

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..hanya kisah zaman sekolah..

ini kisah silam..hanya mahu mengimbau kisah yang pernah berlaku..jadi maaf,entry ini bukan untuk dibaca secara santai..ketidakmahuan membaca adalah amat difahami..

sekian~

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saturday:

aku mengadu kat kawan2 kepala aku sakit and aku rasa cam nak demam..then,aku tunjuk kat dorg ada something timbul kat leher. aku tanya apa tu?..macam chickenpox..then cik T nak tengok belakang aku..positive chickenpox..disebabkan waktu dulu aku nie jenis xberperasaan,so aku cool je..they asked me to call Miss R, and Miss R told me to go to the clinic..i called my sister,tell her i got chickenpox and need to go to clinic..then,cik D message my bf *skg dah ex,harap maklum*..incik bf called then blablabla...

sunday:

arini ada majlis doa selamat sempena SPM..supposely started on 3 but i arrived on 430..perasaan masa tu,takot..ye la..positive chicken pox,tkot melekat kat orang lain..after majlis,Miss R suruh pindah bilik..since the room i'm in,some of them didnt get chickenpox yet..jadi,aku pn berpindah ke bilik bawah..bilik yang semuanya dah berchickenpox except sorang..cik J..she said..alaa,kalau Tuhan nak bagi kena,kena la..at this moment,rasa respect sangat kat dia..and she's willing to take care of me without any fear..starting from this juga,i've mindsetted my mind..walau macam mana pun kita mengelak sesuatu,kalau Tuhan xnak kita kena,kita xkan kena and vice versa..

sepanjang 2mggu SPM:

masa ini,aku rasa darurat sgt..Tuhan je tau apa aku rasa..before exam math mod,i cried..terharu dengan cik C,walaupun just hal kecik macam bagi roti makanan rehat sebab aku kata xmakan lagi,tetap rasa terharu..then cekgu K pujuk and peluk..masa nie memang rasa fobia nak jumpa orang..even masa prep pn,xberani nak g claz..study pun kat cafe,cik F yang teman..mula2 dulu study dalam bilik,x igt siapa yang teman,i think cik F jugak..keluar blok just time exam je..masa makan pun darurat gak..ye la,people said xleh mkan ini la xleh makan itu la..dead!..then,satu malam cik S minta mak dia masakkan bubur..sedap sgt..terharu lagi sekali..pastu siap main suap2 gak..malam yang sama,cik J bawak bubur dari dewan makan..terharu juga sebab sibuk2 dorang ngah study,still ingat kat aku yang susah nk makan..walaupun time tu dah kenyang makan bubur cik S bagi,makan juga bubur cik J bawak..xsanggup nk buang,orang dah susah2 bawak..then,cik R kata kena sapu bedak sejuk,biar chickenpox tu kering..i said ok,so cik R pun tolong sapukan..masa nie baru sedar,aku agak manja..manja dengan orang yang treat aku baik..manja dengan orang yang rapat,wpun baru je rapat..satu pagi tu,pergi ofis..Miss R nak jumpa..told her,aku muntah pagi tu..then,dia bagi minum cereal..Tuhan memang xhenti2 menghantar insan2 yang baik untuk aku..then,Miss R bagi koko crunch..katanya untuk breakfast..dalam minggu yang sama,she asked me nak makan apa..pastu teringat,orang kata chickenpox elok minum air kelapa..petang esoknya,Miss terus bawak air kelapa..T_T..

♥ in my heart,these people are great..ktorg xpenah pun rapat sepanjang perjuangan ke arah SPM,termasuk la Miss..hanya kenal as kawan 1 batch and teacher-student relationship,bercakap pun jarang..tapi bila aku dalam musibah,dorang hulurkan tangan..sedangkan org yang aku rapat??..since these moments gak,aku takut nak rapat serapat2nya dengan kawan..sakit ditinggalkan kawan sama sakitnya ditinggalkan sang kekasih..tambah2 ditinggalkan terkontang kanting melawan sakit,menempuh hidup yang rasanya gelap..masa ini,aku dah start berhati2 berkawan..jangan terlalu berharap kalau mereka xseperti yang kita nak..and im glad,chickenpox and dilemma berkawan nie langsung x effect result SPM aku..apa yang berlaku nie,adalah pengalaman yang berharga..sampai bila2 aku akan ingat..

walaupun teman rapat menghilang,tp tetap ada yang menemani..so im not gonna say im the unluckiest person ever..*wink*

tapi yang sedih sangat,i got B3 je untuk subject Miss R..rasa sangat bersalah..this shouldnt be happened..because i didnt have high fever on that day..wuaaaaa~!!!

nota bersepah:

..dead!dead!dead!..

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..putus..

PUTUS-IMELDA

Aku duduk sendirian di kamarku,

Menangis kesepian kernamu,

Kau tinggalkan aku,

Kau cari yang lain,

Tergamakmu merobek hatiku
[sesungguhnya aku terasa dgn lirik nie]

Tapi setelah kau pegi aku

Mendapat lebih baik dari mu,

Dia hargai aku,

Dia sayangi aku

Lebih daripada mu,

Aku ingin kau tahu betapa ku gembira,

Tidak lg bersamamu,

Namun pastinya nnt kau akan sedari,

Yang kau perlu cintaku,

Yang kau perlu cintaku,

Yang kau perlu cintaku..

notabersepah:

..putus cinta itu perlu dalam hidup walau hanya skali..

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